Fourth File, Fourth Picture

My sister monica who is probabally one of the only consistant readers of this blog gave me this tag. Heres how it works.
I go to my pictures and click on the 4th file, then upload the 4th picture. Then explain what the picture is of. Here's my picture:



Well this is when mom and jordan went to israel. my dad went to south carolina. and i was stuck with whoever would take me in on the week of my birthday! can't say i was thrilled about it, but i made the best of it. Me, emily, ashlee, christian and the rest of the dweyers were gonna go to disneyland and skip school, but it rained, so we went to downtown disney in stead, don't ask why... cause i don't know. Anyway... we were in a sunglasses shop...and i found these. I mean... can't blame me for embarassing myself... i was with 2 girls, i have to do something to get attention. Anyway. It was a good night(: i liked it a lot. They gave me a good smile. and i look back on it and laugh every time i see it about the stupid things i do to get attention. Well thanks for the tag, monica(: I TAG: Angela, Kiery, and Abby.

Braces.

Well I have been annoyed that I haven't been blogging as much as i used to. Can't really find the time. But this one is kind of important. Not really. But as you can see from the title, I got braces... AND MANNN ARE THEY ANNOYING. So far i have lost 4 brackets in 6 days. It is really sad. I think my orthodontist hates me(: i know i would. Anyway here are some pictures


Family: Mommy(:
Friends: Definately Ashlee(:
PS: Monica. I didn't forget about your tag. It is next on my priority list.

Post.Life.Stuff.

Well i haven't been blogging much lately, so i kinda need to just sit down and write. Im doing alright in school lately. Social life is good. Love life could be better. Personal life is decent. Family life is good. And other than that im pretty good. life has been life lately... nothing interesting. i need to blog more im having lots of fun lately. And that's it(: Make my life interesting please! Call me! Cause i am pretty sure if you are reading this, then i love you ;)

Family: Angela
Friends: Emily

General Conference...

Now I know that you are all thinking I am gonna say something spiritual because the title is General Conference... i'm sorry to dissapoint you, but I am actually talking about my apparel for this evening(: It is quite amazing.




Yes... I know... you are very jealous ;)

Family: Mommy
Friend: Ashlee

Music I Wrote

Well... I have written a lot of music in my lifetime... It really doesn't mean anything now, but it is kinda cool. I actually decided to share most of it with everyone. I'll put a little story behind each of them...


~I Need You~ This is probabally the first song I wrote that I actually liked. It just sorta came to me. I like it a lot still. The full music is better than the lyrics though...

I’ve been searching for something like you my whole life
Never knowing you were right there with me through the strife
Seeing you and never thinking of what we could be
Thinking of the problems between you and me

I need you more than you could know
I need you so please don’t go
I need you right until the end
I need you to just me my friend


I’ve been thinking that you’re not worth all this pain
I know that even if we were it’s not much to gain.
I know you said that we were, but I don’t know it’s true
These words you’re saying make me not know what to do

But I need you than you could know
I need you so please don’t go
I need you right until the end
I need you just to be my friend

I know I’m going to miss you if you go
Which is why i’m saying I love you and that you know
I could never let you leave because I love you
I know the problems may seem bad but it’s nothing new

I’ll always need you more than you could know
I’ll need you so please don’t go
I’ll need you right until the end
I’ll need you just to be my friend




~Want You Back~ Well I don't really like this one... it doesn't mean anything and never meant anything... i was just writing it for the sake of writing it... I wrote it like 3 years ago... so when I rhyme bad and sad... please excuse me ;)
There you are that girl that used to be by my side
Now when you see me you go and hide
I want back what we had
I’m really not tryin’ to make you mad

Even when I want you bad
Always in the end I feel sad
And even though I want you back
Cause you complete all the things I lack

I want you to know what i’m feelin’ right now
I want you to tell me who what when and how
I need you to love me even when I don’t
I promise I’ll catch you when you know that I won’t

I’m sittin’ here thinking of you
Wanting you to love me too
Knowing that you don’t care
Knowing that it’s not fair

Thinking about what you said
Trying to get it through my head
That you don’t want me there
So I just stop and stare

Thinkin’ bout you wishin waitin need you by my side
But in the end I know that you won’t care if I died
Wish I could set my mind free
I’ll keep waitin’ stayin’ need you to come back to me

I’ll just keep sittin’ here
When my only pain is fear
I know you don’t love me too
I wish you could see me how I see you



~What I've Been Searchin' For~ Umm this one is alright... I like it a little bit... it is really repetitive, but I like that part about it... it actually did mean something... but not anymore...

I never believed in love at first sight, but then I saw you
You were there so unaware but I knew somehow you felt it too
That was long ago but those thoughts still linger
Now I need you here wrapped around my finger

I’ve been searchin’ for somebody to save me
Searchin’ for somebody like you
Searchin’ for an answer you gave me
Searchin’ for somethin’ to do
Searchin’ for the love that you showed me
Searchin’ for a sign from you
Searchin’ for the time that you owed me
Searchin’ for a sign that you knew
Searchin’ for a chance to tell you I love you
And now I know you’re what I’ve been searchin’ for




~The Hour I Thought we were In Love~ I don't really love this one... but i like some of the lyrics to it... it is not horrible, but it is not good....

I’ve loved you since I saw you for the first time
But when I am with you it feels like a crime
Every day that we’re together is better than a dream
When I see you with him I think I will scream

The hour I thought we were in love
I saw you like an angel straight from above
I know I can’t forget you
But I don’t know what to do
I know you’ll always be there for me
Even when our lives get stormy
I can’t stop the spell I’m under
‘cause I know you are my eighth world wonder

Whenever I see you with him my eyes burn
What did he do for your love to earn
I want so much for you to see
How much I want you to be with me


~Born to Love you~ Well this one is a bit crappy.. I like the message... but the lyrics aren't that good.

Is losing you really worth a friend
I don’t know if my heart will ever truly mend
The times we shared, I wish they could last
This is all happening way to fast

I was born to love you
Born to need you
Born to hold you in my arms
Born to want you
Born to see you
Born to make your heart warm
Now I see
We are meant to be.


~True Friend~ This one I wrote in like 6th grade because my sister entered a poetry contest with a poem about true friends. I didn't know what one was at that time. I know what one is right now, but have yet to find very many...

You can’t pretend
That someone’s your friend
Or that you care
For their hearts’ tear


If they are your true friend
They’ll stick by you until the end
A true friend is there for good
And always does what they should


If you want a true friend
Then be yourself and never bend
In your morals that are good
And always do what you should


You can’t pretend
That someone’s your friend
Cause that’s a mess
With no contest




~Forbidden Love~ This is like my ESP song... cause I wrote this, and then somehow it came to pass... It was at first inspired by my friend who felt his love was forbidden... but then it kinda pretained to me... it inspired me to continue writing. I don't think it is great, but I still like it. It doesn't mean anything anymore.

They say love’s the only thing
That matters in this life
If you could only spread your wings
And go straight through the strife


Listen to your hearts desire
And let love guide the way
Make sure that you conquer that fire
To love another day


If your love seems forbidden
Don’t ever give up hope
Even if they want you ridden
Hold fast to that rope


Make sure that you seize that chance
To follow your hearts romance


~When I'm With You~ I actually wrote this one today... I have sessions of writing and it normally just pops into my head... it is not that good, but it is about a friend that means a lot to me(: (just a friend)

I was blind but now I see
You were always there for me
I never thought you were there
But somehow you make it all seem fair

Cause when I am with you

I smile longer
I laugh harder
I see better
I know what is right in front of me

I you hadn’t been there I don’t know what I would do
You are my hero and I’m yours too



~The little things you do~ Well I really believe that it is the little things that people do that really reflect who they are and what they believe. Little things change my life. I wrote this one today. Same reason as the one before.

Just when I though I was lost
You see me for me and I know I’m found
You listened to what I had to say
You helped me know it was okay

Strangely I can trust you
And you can trust me too
You’re just my friend
But you made my heart mend
I don’t need anything between us
Just to know that you’re still there

All the time we share
It made life seem fair
It is just the little things you do
That makes me want you



Well some of these are more recent. Others wayy long ago. Mosd don't mean anything anymore. But they mean a lot to me still <3

Family: Emily and Ashlee
Friend: Daddy

short post.

Well i went babysitting today... fun time... i now have 401 dollars(: it makes me happy good night everyone <3

Family that made my day: Daddy
Friend that made my day: Cierra

Just another post...

Well I have decided that I am going to do this new thing where at the end of every post, i will put someone who made my day from my family and someone who made my say from my friends for that day. It will be fun(: So that is what it means.

But yeah. Lately life has been a whole lot better. Not saying that it wasn't good before, but it is getting even better(: it is a lot of fun. I am not gonna put too much on here so good night!

Family: Mommy
Friend: Melanie

Asking people to dances.

Well this is a Tag i created.
With homecoming coming up at my school, this has been a popular discussion topic. Who are you going with? How did they ask you? And all that jazz. Well i have had some interesting conversations with people about how they got asked, and I find it pretty cool, so I wanted to see if you guys had anymore... So fill the page with as many as you want. (i put 3)

1. Take all the stuff out of a pumpkin and fill it with flowers and carve in: will you go to Insert dance name here with me, pumpkin?

2. Deliver a chunk of ice in the shape of a heart with a note that you can't read until the ice melts. Then, when they read it, it will say: Now that you have melted my heart, will you go to insert dance name here with me?

3. Get a bunch of balloons and put a note in one of them. Fill the room with balloons. And tell the person to pop them all to find the note... this is more fun than it is romantic and what-not.

I TAG: Angela, Kiery, Monica, and everyone else that wants to do it.